argument

08/05/09

Mum & dad quarrel yesterday night.... for the same matter again.... no matter it's 20s or 40s, the problems are just the same ... y we women aways are the one who are wrong in the argument... y men neva appreciate....they always claim that we are the one who start the fight... yes.. men r always right....they are always very busy as they got big business to do... but women nowadays not working huh? & besides working, women will still have a lot of other things to do...says if women are not exist in the world..who is the one who cook? who help men to give birth & suffer all the pain? who is the one that do your laundry? who is the one that help u wash dishes? perhaps u can say ur mum, ur wife, ur gf, or ur maid.... but dun forget, even ur maid is a woman too...

Actually i'm quite contradicted recently... i got this feeling of getting married but at the same time no confidence in marriage... for my case... he normally claims that only he will be very busy when his buyer is in malaysia but what i see now is even his buyer is not in malaysia, he will still have to work till 11-12 almost everyday... outstation, meet supplier, qc representative, station one unplug... besides working, he will still have his soccer time...even though not all the time he go but the reason that he dun go is normally because he needs to work... 

If i dun get married, i just dunno y i will feel so unsecure in this relationship but if get married... is it means that everynight i have to stay in th double storey house a lone after work? or stay at my mum or his mum house till he is back....?? mayb he is right... i really need to get someone that work 9-5.. then after that can accompany me.. mayb not side by side stick together but at least i'm not alone.....

now when i see my parent is still arguing on the same problem... i just dunno y suddenly feel so disappointed in relationship..wondering will us also the same in 40s? or 60s? or even worse... should i let go even though i know i can't......................................................

When Pain Still There

06/05/09

So long din blog... even now still dun really feel like blogging but i'm blogging.. haha..lame me.. everyday life just routinely happen, wake up, drive to office, work, wait for 5.30pm, drive home, dinner, tv, then sleep... feel myself is so robot.. maybe will go out movie once a week with my hong hong after work.. sat & sun? is either movie or sleep...boring life & so scare myself will sick of this boring life...

nothing much i can do while waiting mr alvin, thus read thru kit's blog which i found i really like this passage below... is already the 5th year, but no matter how, when i think about him...or when he appear in my dream which just seems so real....my tears will just drop easily.. not those shouting or crazy type of crying.. peacefully, sobbing quietly alone... thus i will always try not to think about him during day time.. it's still a pain in my heart... which will never fade away.. people says time will cure... mayb it's to someone... but it definitely doesn't work on me...haih.... what i can do is just take a deep breath & tell myself: relax & steady, genie teong.... there'r still a lot of thing for u to think about...u wun feel the pain if u dun think about it...ok??

OK...............................................................................




Copy Paste From Kit's Blog
http://kitfeteria.blogspot.com/


怀念往昔纯真的脚印

那天和一班朋友出街打发空闲时，犹豫了一下，买了生平千嬅的第一张专辑，《Miriam’s Melodies》。买下的原动力是姐的一句: “反正我一张CD都听得上两个月的啦，很值得你买！”但其实我暗地里说，应该是听足一世才对。曾光顾过那么多档夜市场翻版CD挡，买过那么多歌星的翻版专辑，都是CD听不烂radio死不休的！

千嬅的歌声，在康还没离开我之前我认识了它，在康离开我后陪我渡过了多少晚因想念他而难熬的深夜。

TVB的一套《美味情缘》让我认识了千嬅的大笑姑婆性格，也听见了她的第一首歌。接着，感动我最深的歌，应该是那首《可惜我是水瓶座》。曾是那么疯狂的在新山Pelangi Mall买下一张有她《水瓶座》的卡拉OK翻版VCD。然后，04 年新年时，在前往泰国苏梅岛的沿路上，我在巴士上对着一行20个旅人唱了这首迷恋已久的歌。那时很尴尬的唱不起它高音部分，惹来哄堂大笑！而这首《水瓶座》，也是青梅们听过我唱的第一首千嬅深情歌吧！（《朋友》、《太委屈》、《离开我》除例）。哈，这几首歌是我第一次接触卡拉OK时唱的，用鸭子声唱那么好听的歌，的确很荒唐，但这些情节正正都是我们在康的家疯狂时做过的事！如今回味，便成了往日共谱疯狂的事迹。即难听；也愿听！

《水瓶座》记录了我和康最后一个行程的故事，也是最开心最感动的一段。或许某日当我重游这个充满我们友情烙印的地方时，会流着泪，唱着《水瓶座》，感受过我和他最后的感动，还有我们兄弟情最后的那份温暖！

直到他离开后的那段时候，我常哼着这首歌，才发现在歌词中，找到了某部分的感情共鸣 — “犹如最结实的堡垒，原来在逐点崩溃逐点粉碎”。本以为他能很坚强地去和陌生的癌症达成共识，有着“我不再缠住你（癌细胞）；你也别再干扰我继续存在这个世界上的权利！”的信念。只是，我都没想到再结实的堡垒也会崩溃，后来的他放弃了同生死搏斗的特权，泄气地离开。自己总是怪罪于他，怎么那么不肯争气，不要争回一口气来继续活下去。

很多个礼拜，我都因为“拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡”这一句而泛起了内心的激动。我该拿什么来换我的安睡呢？我们的回忆吗？我们的故事吗？放下了我们的过去就能让我安睡吗？其实，那时我并没有因为他的离开而无法入眠，每一次想起都抽蓄，很多时候都是累得睡了下去。我所谓的安睡，是我心中的平复，让悲痛沉睡下去的意思。而冰茶，是代表平复我心情的药方。所以我该拿什么药方来换取心中难以平复的心情呢？多年以后，知道了，放下是一个方法。终于，以为一首《水瓶座》能成为我们故事的见证歌，今日虽还是我们的友情歌，只是感觉不一样了。当初的开心，变成了今时的伤感！

他死后几个月，来到十二月。千嬅的《寒舍》引起我不安分的心情再次悲哀。“圣诞除夕过冬，可有节目吗？没有节目，太脱俗，怕看见烟花。”曾经那么多个佳节，都是跟他一起过，跟他看过那么多次的烟花，今天忽然没了他在身边，只留下片段回忆陪我们去准备圣诞聚会。内心泪在流，却也还是跟青梅开始了康离开后的第一个相聚。那年圣诞，大家第一次做小型交换礼物派对。少了他，气氛感觉不一样了。在镜头前强颜欢笑的我们，是否都一样期待着一个没有答复的期望？希望他能再次出现在我们身边？

感谢千嬅，还有她的歌，给了我们的故事一个记录。记录着我的心情，我们的过去。快乐的回忆，在我追忆“他们”的同时却也充满感慨和无奈。回忆绵绵无期；想念继续下去！

前晚，以前的他在我的梦里出现，勾起了在一起时的美好片段......

29-10-2006 5.05pm ~完~

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阿桑的离去VS 张家辉=影帝

21/04/09

同样是娱乐新闻，可是却一个伤心欲绝，另一个就欣喜万分。我知道阿桑的逝世已经是大概10天前的新闻，可是当我去到我ex-colleague的blog看到时，却有股冲动想把现在的心情写下来。同样是世界上的两个人，可是他们的遭遇却那么的不同，我有时还真的挺矛盾的，到底我们活着，是为了什么而活，而这个答案，我到今天仍然没有人能够给到我一个满意的答复。唉，有时觉得自己真的很灰，不知道自己的下一步又应该怎么去走才对。。。

20/04/09

Inside My Minds...

14/04/09

Found Some Interesting Images That Truely Reflect My Minds Now...

好痛好痛

26/03/09

眼泪好像流不完似的，还在拼命地流，我真的好想好想忘记你。记得有人说过，当一段爱情出现了互相指责的时候，两个人不管再怎么爱对方，都无法好好地维持这段爱情了，我真的好想有一种药，吃了后可以忘记你的，对你来说，我的存在，只不过是你的累赘，就算再多天没有见面，你仍然可以坦然度过，剩下我一个人在家facebook,blog,再不然就是看连续剧，除了那天是跟KM他们看之外，这个月内，就没有再和你看过戏了。到底我还要再流多少眼泪你才能懂得我的痛，到底还要在手上割多少条伤痕，才能切断我对你的爱与思念？

no title

25/03/09

I dunno if this will be my last post but I'm really very tired... very very tired... ppl keep shouting around me & u keep saying i'm demanding... i'm actually weak than anyone.... just like what kendy & poh meng said...pull me down once, pull me down twice, i really cant take it when u pull me down the third time. I really dunno how to be ur girlfriend... dunno how to stop complaining,dunno how to be not demanding...i know it's actually all my fault...i'm actually lucky coz i've actually tried a lot of new things that many ppl might neva have a chance to get even 1% of what i've tried...i know u r frustrated when i say i wanna die but if i really got the chance, i'll rather the one who got cancer is me...if there muz be a person to die in my family due to illness, i would rather that's me... so ppl like u & mum wun be saying i'm wasting time or not be grateful, if all things i got transfer to my brother, i'm very sure he will be a very happy person now.... mayb among 10 person 10 will say the see no reason i should try to end my life but u guys are not me...sometimes i dun even know wht myself want... to me human is damn simple & tiny, i can say t very easy to live happily everyday but i'm really not tht tough tht how outside ppl see me..... sometimes i really feel very sufferhen after argue with u & nag by mum... which i always tell myself i can't have this kinda feeling but i just cant change my attitude...i want to but i cant... how to change i really dunno..wht i know is just keep crying...i kknow the world will keep turning without my existance, ppl will tend to forget a person says after 2 or 3 years... ask my brother friends..who will really rmb him after 4 yrs...who can actually recall how he look like....things will neva change.. but i really enough of the world..i'm even tired to type now...have nth to leave for u all..wht i left is all the debts & mistake i did... i need someone to cerrish me but u need someone to support which u can say i din support u at all..i really dunno how u define support but i keep trying & u say i din....mayb to u is really nth..so sorry bout that...sorry that i lie on u... cant even sleep wit my head bursting, but soon..i think i'll sleep peacefully.... sorry to everyone if i really disappointed all of u... really feel very tired d.....................................................till then

Princess Wishes On Ice

22/03/09

Reserved... start to crazy soon...

My Kai Zai - Little Ronald's Birthday

21/03/09

Reserved to blog about my Kai Zai's birthday but not now... mood sux

Dinner With Ex-College Mates

20/03/09

Dinner with ex-college mates in SP Kim Gary & second round in Circle. I was expecting more ppl... but no regret going. Talked to ppl (hehe, those i defined as high class ppl) I dun really talk to during college time. All thanks to the organiser: Edwin Soh. Haha... anyway, really happy to talk with ppl like Samuel, Xing Fu (haha, i know i muz spell wrongly your name) and etc...

Concluson afta the dinner: felt glad that i could actually communicate with those i think they are "high" class ppl & dun dare to talk to them all the time in college, but at the same time, i realise those really high class ppl will never mind to share their thoughts with the others but those who claimed themselves as high class and dun like to share with others are really those low class ppl...

My First LONGCHAMP

16/03/09

Even before C.O.B me & SiHong already discussing whether we want to go to pavilion anot...and decided to go there walk walk since Tangs has discount & further reduction sales... We especially confirm that our decision is right when we saw the heavy rain while we walked out from the elevator afta work. So we drive all the way to Pavilion and the 1st shop i'm went is LONGCHAMP, to check the handbag I keep thinking of whether to buy anot after the handbag that Alvin bought me for new year had torn. There are 3 coulours for the size I want but basically I'm only interested in 2 colour, lime green & beige. The guy working in the shop is a good salesman, I would say he affect my choice of purchase and I do think that he can really be a good salesperson. But i still end up go out the shop without purchase for the 1st round, wanna think twice before i make further decision. But after some window shopping in Tangs (even further reduction but still stuff are still expensive like hell), finally decided to purchase the bag with Beige colour. And at 1st I tot that the size I wanna buy is at RM590 but it's actually only RM450. So happily bought my very 1st LONGCHAMP handbag. Working towards my dream for the 2nd which cost RM4000 plus... Haha, I think ppl reading might say i'm crazy, but this is me... lol

I'm lovin' it~~

让人会心一笑的一顿午餐 =）

15/03/09

就像我们之前所答应对方的，终于有时间一起到Sushi Tomo去吃午餐了。虽然大家很久都没有谈天和说话，但庆幸的是，我们依然有我们的话题，大家对彼此都不会有不熟悉的陌生感。所以我觉得朋友不一定要每天腻在一起才称得上好，其实大家可以这样简简单单地吃一顿饭，谈谈天，说说近况，那不是很舒服的一件事吗？其实我也很庆幸自己能认识到身边的这些朋友，至少在我没有他配的时候，我还有他们。所以，如果两年前的我说朋友对我来说是不那么重要的，那今天我想讲，朋友对我来说已经比以前重要了哟！而且，我还要谢谢我这些身边真正的好朋友，你们在我心里有比较重要了咯！！！ Muakssssss :-*

我和Vivianne在Sushi Tomo 的一些照片

~ 它和Sakae一样有电脑Menu的哦!

~ Vivianne order 的Sushis *v*

~ 还有California Roll!! 

~ Vivianne the artist @_@

~ 我的Sashimi Set Lunch

~ Omg!! 两个都是我的最爱!! 

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~ 勉为其难得拍，不喜欢没有化妆就拍照 =(

~ Vivianne 说像Hamster 喔，但不想让人认得出是我，所以把眼睛遮起来，HAHA!!

~ Vivianne 要拍的，她说很美。

~ 两个人的相遇，就是因为这个“缘”字。。。

Everlasting love??

04/03/09

Dun everytime also make me feel like i shall let u go coz the reason of it's hard for me to be with u, i sincerely try to be patient with u and tolerate with wht u hope from me... but have u do anything for me?? pls understand what i need... or, leave me alone..

Everlasting love??

1. Courtship stage wherein you know him/her from top to bottom. Know everything about his/her life, goals, dreams, hobbies, family, strengths, weaknesses... pretty much everything about him. A key step to having a lasting relationship is knowing your partner absolutely 100%. Same thing goes for you wherein you let your partner know you 100%.

2. Trust is also key in a everlasting relationship. Never ever doubt your partner. Always believe in him/her with proper reasons. Trust him/her during in times of trouble within your relationship.

3. Communication is an essential thing in a relationship. Always talk with each other about things that happened for the both of you everyday. It is much better in person than in a call or text. This builds up your relationship.

4. Do not entertain any other guy/girl if you have a current relationship. Stick with only the guy/girl you are currently with. The point of this is commitment. Commitment is essential in an everlasting relationship. Being committed in a relationship tells so much about a person which is being a solid person in his/her relationship. To be with your partner forever. Also in Marriage, a commitment is important to make your marriage last until death.

5. Always have a day in a week wherein you will be together for a day (at least). It would be much better if you will allot a time everyday wherein you will be together. This is important because in marriage you will always be together forever. So better start it earlier in your relationship.

6. Be honest with each other. Always tell the truth to each other. Even when there are unwanted consequences you should still tell the truth.

7. Love. Let me define love first. Love is the highest form of self-giving to another person. You give yourself to the person you love to the point that you will be with him/her until death. Love him/her until the end.

8. Marriage. You and your partner should be married in the sacrament of Matrimony. This entails that you become one. Meaning you and your partner own each other as husband and wife. This is to permanently seal your relationship until death in front of God.

9. Have a same spiritual life together. Ensure that you both have the same religion so that there would be no conflicts in your ideas in the midst of your relationship.

10. Do not have sexual intercourse for the sake of pleasure. Sexual intercourse should only be done for the sake of begetting children for your family. With both of you willingly accepting it and not forcing it. Sexual Intercourse for the sake of pleasure makes your relationship like objects. You use each other as objects for pleasure only. You objectify yourself and your partner instead of valuing the person you love for who he/she is.

Source(s):
College Education.

Photos of Sekeping Serendah

As promised in the earlier post that I'm to upload the photo of Sekeping Serendah ~~~

the interior of the "mud" shed

the exterior of the "mud" shed

we stayed in this "mud" shed

the "glass" shed

i suppose this is a place for big group of people to have breakfast?

great swimming pool with real cooling water

me!! me!! me!!

the uniqueness of sekeping serendah

food preparation by the "bbq chef"
me? taking photo loo... can't see meh??

fire burning burning..."whou whou"

our bbq dinner ~~ yummy yummy ~~

omg!! can you see how big the ant is??!!